New Fall
October 11, 2010Wow. It has been the longest time since I’ve signed into my account, let alone posted. I guess I was also curious what had been happening with people’s blogs that I would read. It’s nice to see that some are doing better.
As for me, I’ve been too busy with work and life (mostly work) to feel the things I used to. Too physically and mentally tired to cry or think. Exhaustion does that to a person. Nonetheless, my anxiety has gotten gradually worse, with more OCD tendencies that I’m used to. I’ve been blaming it on work, but I think it’s because I keep noticing how people around me and I are aging – always leading to thoughts of inevitable death and not really being able to do anything about it.
Not surprisingly, with the fall season at the doorstep, the cold feelings seem to always filter back in. I hate the feeling of being cold inside and out. I don’t like the silence. Just recently, my dreams have started to come back.
Still, it feels good to be posting this. As if – finally! – I have time to think/feel something other than pressure.
Who am I kidding? Back to reality and back to the work week ahead. Sighs.
