From the title, you might think I went on some exciting vacation of sort. Not the case. Posting to wordpress hasn’t been on top of my to-do list (well if a to-do list actually existed). I mean it took me a bit to even remember what the site was and what my username was. It’s amazing how absence degrades your memory..
Well, the first line in this post isn’t quite a lie. Mid-October, I did get to go to Maryland with the boyfriend for a weekend and that was fun. Not so much the pooring rain that one day… There was alot of walking though, being quite touristy, and we didn’t get mugged or anything which was an obvious plus! I took too many pictures. I officially turned into one of those annoying Asian people taking pictures of absolutely everything in the event that I will either get amnesia or altzheimers. In fact, we are in the midst of planning a trip to new york city, ah my beloved birthplace. That is not going so well. Too late to really book for middle of December and too expensive. Wouldn’t it be so great to have so much money.. **dreams**
Late October, surprise, I went to a halloween party even with my social anxiety. **claps** Don’t be so proud. I was dragged there, costume and everything. Flapper. Cold. Bad idea. The hostess, someone the boyfriend works with, was great. All funny and cheery, nothing like me. I was lucky enough to weasel myself out of a party the following night. Hell if I was going to do another one!
November has flown by quickly. Not much happening but eating out too much, but so much yummy food. Although, there was one Japanese place that was, by far, the WORST restaurant I have ever been to. WORST service. I mean I am one of those really lenient people, won’t say anything unless something’s seriously wrong. I am STILL waiting for a damn refund. I am planning to call them every day until I get it! Anyway, no more talk of that. It makes my blood pressure go up.
On the emotional front, things have been pretty uneventful. I am happy with the boyfriend. I have thought about, but have not self-harmed in quite a while at least 2 months now. I don’t think I’ll ever be able to suppress those thoughts completely. It makes me tired. Even though I get the recommended hours of sleep per night, for the most part, I am still getting those occasional nightmares. Not the monsters hiding in the closet, but the monsters in people hurting me. Suggestive of me still not trusting and fearing people? Also, I think I have a heightened sense of smell and touch. Always putting me into euphoric states. Sometimes good, sometimes not so good.
Well, hopefully December is nice. I do have to worry about annual reviews at work. Blah. Too tired now to talk anymore. Have a good night.