what?

okay, i dont know what is going on with me at the moment, but i feel like i’m going crazy.  i’m feeling a sense of shear panic and confusion.  my thoughts are racing and i can’ t focus on a damn thing.  i was trying to figure out if this is cycling or just a panic attack or neither.  anyway, i tried looking it up, rapid cycling i mean, and somehow got distracted to reading about the top cities in the U.S. with the worst allergies or something related to allergies.  i discovered that philadelphia is 25th.  in other words, never got around to looking it up.  i figure somehow writing this post would make my mind focus on something, anything.  i’ m finding, though, that i’m having a tough time spelling and typing and remembering how i got to this state in the first place.  in fact, i can’t remember anything at the moment.  the thoughts are just racing through my mind like crazy and its making me dizzy.  is that a spider?  no… or… no.  great, now i’m starting to hallucinate too.  NO, i am not on any type of drug or medication.  hahah so funny and scary at the same time… it’s like hahah and BOO… get it.  uhm… yeah.  i hope no one reads this.  what am i talking about?  no one reads my damn blog!  so sleepy and so awake.  so freaking cold.  nah this wouldnt be cycling….. just craziness.